you wake me up

throughout these few weeks, i've learnt a lot and have been storing some info to my brain, it's time to set my mindset, my emotion. time to grow to be mature, to be a person who can think critically and make good decision.

Actually i want to confess through this entry.express my utmost gratitude.LOL! a person who keep asking me to grow, he wants me to grow into more independent person, always throw some questions to me which i've never thought before.Honestly speaking, i've been living for 18 years, he's the first person who talk that to me, what's my future,why i must grow,never underestimate myself,dare to dream because it makes us alive and more. he had made some impact on me. nowadays,i started to have target everyday,what i must accomplish today, what am i going to do next,even the next second. i've never done that before in my entire life. he thought me how to think wisely, how to act in a way. he pushed me hardly during exam,i knew i'm the kind of person who need people to push to study.seriously,thank you Peter! you're so great to me :') if i didn't get a excellent result, i'll never regret because i knew i've put lots of effort like nobody's business compared last time.

i cried few times because of myself. now,i believe in dream, i knew if i believing in what i do, it would never failed. DON'T AFRAID TO DREAM. this is what Peter told me. i wanna share with you, dream can be as great as you want, but have to work on it. it's okay if your dream just a tiny one or invisible one but please believe that you'll make a big impact on one such as your dream is want everyone in this world to be happy. what you can do is just smile at everyone you see, no matter they are stranger or friends, you'll make their day! :) you'll never know someone would live better because of you.

Thank you once again Peter!! :)) i promise i'll do what i've promised you. will not let you disappointed. lets us work out peeps!! :) YOUTH ARE POWERFUL! don't believe? just watch out! :P

i'm proud to be an AIESECer, gonna lead the world! :)

Love,Sarah ♥

never end

it's been usual that i don't update my blog frequently. sorry guys,really have been busy with assignments and exams which 4 weeks continuously, this was just take my life off! my life is messed up now,have no proper eating time,did not shower in proper time, did not have proper sleeping time.

i felt so sad that i didn't spend time with my family, i'm always the one who volunteer to stay at home alone and not going out with them,not joining my family bonding time. seriously,i felt sorrowful because i've already spent most of my time on campus and i didn't be a responsible kid after i got home :( sorry family. but seriously,works and time don't allow me to do something i want to do.

these few weeks, i'm having serious problem is lack of sleep and i couldn't pay full attention in the class. i'll be sleeping during half of the class. my eyelid just close automatically, i've tried to wake myself up, motivate myself. but failed :( it's just not good at all. it happened almost all the class and everyday! i kept struggling with my mental. yes,you told me that my mental should be stronger than my physical.

today, finally,i can take my time and chill but not to the fullest. i can spend more time with my family, with TV, with my piano, with my bloggie,with everything! there's still some assignments have to accomplish but not hectic as last few weeks.

something sad happened today, i drove back this morning since i had a meeting yesterday till 8.30pm and i was so fatigue throughout the whole day, never have a lunch break due to meeting also. so my day is from 9am til 8.30pm. okay, i reached home at 10am and my piano class was in the afternoon so i just said "mommy" which i used to call my mom once i step into the house. then i go straight to my bedroom and sleep because there was still have some time for piano class. i went to piano class for an hour then i got back home, my mom wasn't at home because she went to donate blood. so i didn't meet her, i just took away Mc Donald lunch to my brother and myself. i slept again after my lunch and some TV, from 3pm to 6pm. when i planned to open my eyes, i accidentally heard a phone conversation between my mom and grandma. "yeah,she just came back this morning and i didn't get to talk to her until now because she keep sleeping when she got back home, poor children, yea, my friends told me that their kids who's studying university has such life too."

my heartbeat was beating fast because of the guiltiness or what? i just so not sure. but what i know is my mom wants to talk to me, we've not met each other for 5 days. i understand how a mother feel when cannot talk to the only daughter since son couldn't talk that well and that close.LOL!!

try to understand your family and always be grateful because they're your supporter,as always. never end!in fact, your body and their body are flowing the same blood, it never end until you die

just a random one, was walking to my class *my eyes is sooo small.

spent time in library when having break between classes,this is how my life's going on now.

alright,that's all this post. might update another one tomorrow since my time allow me to do so :)
by the way, sorry guys for waiting my post for quite a long time.

Love.Sarah♥

interesting personal test

Hello there!saw my friend's personal test result through her blog.it looks interesting so i just give a try on it! tadaaaaa...here's the result. some are accurate.some are not. so sad to see the education. "end up with unusual job" :( whatever,this is just a reference, so yea,i can change it man! :) i'm the writer of my life! :)


Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.




here's the link,you guys can give a try! :P

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Love,Sarah♥

where is the faith

i'm here again my blog readers, because i'm not in the mood today. yes,i'm stress out, i lose faith, i'm powerless right now. i told someone that "don't keep thinking of S.T.R.E.S.S. because it won't bring you far, always think how to finish everything in the time given". it's always easy to tell and think but not in action.

i tried to do maths question for 3 days but fail, nothing is correct. yes,nothing! a useless person i am,indeed. today,i've tried some maths question, studied some accounting but i felt like i've done nothing throughout the whole day. it has so much to go, i have so much to learn within a short period *S.O.S.

posted status, people care,they comment, i cried. i cried partly because of the pressure that pushing me hardly, mostly because i saw people cared me a lot!! thanks for motivating and comforting people! love you guys lotsss!!! always appreciate that there's people actually care me alot and bring me up. so nice to have all of you,especially you. thank you Peter!! :))

caring people are here! there's few more.* sorry couldn't print screen everything

i promise myself, when the sun rises, i'll be stronger. :) as you said, the world is soooo amazing and why you want to give up the chance to see the world? ain't? :)
thank you once again!
i still hate being an emotional person. thought yesterday was a great day for me but today is just not good for me.

*sorry that my blog doesn't seems appealing nowadays :(

Love,Sarah♥

100 years once

hey peeps,blog reader,stalker,you,me,he,she,it,
so sorry again for not updating my blog. have been busying like crazy. i'm having exam every week, 2 papers done, 3 more to go! first,i want to say happy 11.11.11 world!!! blessed that am alive on this amazing date! :) feel regret because i couldn't join my AIESEC family in uni that they did something crazy, like recording "ONE DAY ON EARTH" video, flash mob, dancing infront of crowd. i wanna join them!! i couldn't join them because i have piano lesson at 12pm. so,this could be listed to my "regret list in my life"/ by the way,i celebrated 11.11 am in my car.LOL!! i was on the way back from McDonald's drive thru for breakfast.haha... it was hilarious, don't you feel it too? i acknowledge i'm a dangerous driver because i can self-taking picture whilst driving. lol. no police,pleaseeeee :P

it's 11.11 am peeeooople!

this was taken on 11.11.11, at 11.11am, in myvi! :D

i felt great because i gave my mom a hug on this date! i was thinking what crazy stuffs i can do on this crazy date? i can spam some of my friend's wall.that's all.haha...what a lame activity was that?

besides that, i'll keep your promise and we work out on it.kay? :) so nice of you, a protective person you are!♥you're in my mind,as always. you knew how much you could influence me never know you can touch my heart easily. touch it as hold it carefully either squeeze and break it. yes, nobody knows what the future would be, at least we tried before, we worked out before. never let ourselves regret.


*thanks once again for wishing me on time, 11.11.11, 12am :)

Love,Sarah♥

be strong,not easy

HAAAALOOOO.
can anyone sponsor me a vacuum cleaner? in order to let me clean all the dust off. :)

sorry for being not update my blog for 2 weeks. There was so many happening within these 2 weeks and i encountered so many stuffs.okay,let me briefly tell you what was going on last week. I attended RLDS (Regional Leadership Development Seminar) for 3 days 2 nights, we stayed in broga throughout the whole seminar. it was just so amazing to join this seminar. This seminar thought me alot such as how to lead people, how to communicate with people, know more about you yourself and so on.

surprisingly, i was chosen to be the leader of group six. i've never thought that before because i always have doubt with my leadership skills. believe me, now, i've learnt more than i expected. To lead a group of 18 people, is not easy. you have to looking after all of them, don't forget about them. i don't know 80% of my group because this RLDS was combined with 8 Local Committees (Taylor's, UM, UPM, UKM and more *i've forgotten) it was so cool that you can see the growth of everyone. from the first day of shyness, the second day of craziness til the last day of unity. lastly, my sexy six group won number 1 among 12 groups man,including seniors group,so proud of them :)

honestly speaking,i didn't sleep well the whole seminar because UNMC had our own bonding :) it was so fun to play with them in the midnight,something called dolly, "number dialing".OMG! that was sooo crazy,hahaha....yet unforgettable! so,the result was, i slept almost 3.30am the first night and 2am. but the problem was we have to wake up at 7.30am.arghhh... *HELP!

i was so blessed to be given the chance to join this seminar,thanks AIESEC! :) i love AIESEC more now♥ i love my aiesec family ♥♥
and you know what?proudly to say that i've achieved all my target/expectation to myself that we wrote it down on the first day. that was, talk infront of 50 to 100 people. but i've managed to share infront of everyone,around 180 people :)
let me show you some of the pictures ya.

group picture of the first day

on stage!

my lovelies, Aishah mom,Esther mom and me :)

breathtaking broga! this was the place where we stay :)

Sarah,Beverly and JoEy :)

group pictures with notts! :)

each LC is having their own future expectation

my SEXY 6,love them sooo much ♥

combination of Taylor's and UNMC, Ben-jie, Grace, me and Peter :)

i am zombie and i need to sleep! :P *taken by Esther Koon 

for more pictures, click here AIESEC RLDS 2011
that's all for my awesome and knowledgeable weekend peeps! :)

an independent person,it's not easy to be. strong person has vulnerable time,you wouldn't know. it's so tiring to be strong. sometimes,i will ask myself, what's the point to be so strong? what i found for the answer is just to live longer without get hurt. that's all i can say

independent, you're just a physically independent but not mentally because in-dependent, you inner part still need someone to rely on :) *my own creation.LOL!!


*thanks for making me stronger yet more rely on you :)

Love,Sarah♥