big girl,be tough!

hey guys,
i just came back from fetching my family to KL sentral so that they go to airport by bus.
it's cheaper.

hmm.....i cried hardly in the car,i meant during driving.
i knew it's dangerous but i can't control my tears,what i can do is wipe my tears off and continue my driving.
i think you'll laugh at me after i told you my reason.
i cried because i can't go to paris,seriously...
i watched those video about those rides/attractions in disneyland paris.
i'm so contradiction,don't you think so?

after they went to the bus station and i drove in no longer time,my brother text me "don't sad,don't sad,take good care and you'll go next time,gambateh!"
awww.....so sweet of him,i cried harder that time and the DJ was playing lazy song-bruno mars,i tried to sing well but i can't because the tears keep falling.

i knew this is my decision,no one can blame.
actually i'm proud to made this decision because i chose my studies instead of paris.
how awesome i am! :)
"big girl,it's the time to show your toughness that you can be alone!"
this is what i told myself in the car.

excuse me!stop crying and stop regretting!!
this is your choice and this is what you chose!
there's always an opportunity cost by choosing something as what economist always says.
so,i must show that the decision that i chose won't be wrong!
it'll be alright and i'm not regretting by staying at here and having exam and get a good result!!


hope i'll success in the end
i believe that i can go to paris when i study abroad:)
to study abroad is always an important aim to me.

so i have to stay alone for 10 days but don't worry about me because i'll be going to grandma's house during weekend.

 keep on smiling sarah:)

 smile with your heart♥

i'm totally a brave girl because i'm alone at home,ahhhh!!!
okay,off to bed now because aunty is going to bring me for breakfast tomorrow:)
enjoy your sunday everyone:)

ask?

yes?

really?

i think so?

i don't think so?

does he?

do i?

do you?

i think so.

i don't think so

yes,he does

yes,i do

yes,you do.

there are so many questions in my mind,
what to do?
just leave it.LOL!!:)

guys,i'm at home.
home sweet home:)

feel

oppssss....
is the feel comes,is it after so long ago?
can anyone tell me?
hmm....what to do?
i'm not sure do he feels that too?
ahh....whatever,what i have to do is just study right now.
try not to think others.but those things are not controllable!


what if he feels that?
what if he doesn't feel that?
huh?
there's no answer actually.

or i think too much.
hehe:)
i'm crapping,just let it be.guys!

nighty nighty :)

rush yet enjoyable

hey guys,
sorry for not updating for so many days.approximately 2 weeks,i reckon:)
so,how's your life?

yeah,went for a performance last night.
it's chinese dance and we performed at tian hou temple,kuala lumpur.
this is my first time to join this dance because all of them dance this before.
so it's a very first time for me.

i was so stress when our person incharge said that this is a big event and there's so many people from everywhere from malaysia.
then i kept worrying that i'll ruin everything if i have a mistake.OMG!
it's scary....
i kept putting pressure on myself.WTH!

okay,don't talk about that.
i stayed back after ballet class until depart time.6pm
so yong qian tied my hair and helped me make up.
so nice of her and she's so pro!

honestly,i don't know how to make up.even one!!
am i a girl?LOL!!silly question.
but i'll learn a little lah.hehehe.....

i'm out of tangent already.come back!!
it rain heavily that day.so it's traffic jam in the journey.
all the way long.....so jam!
we were worry about that we will be late.but luckily no:)

in the car,happened a lot!
3 girls in the back.me,ally and yen in, keep taking pictures.OMG!
because yen in's phone has a lomo application and others application in the camera so we keep taking pictures during the way there.
here's are the pictures.

 yen in and i :)

 ally and i♥

 

yen in again 

 ♥

these pictures are original from phone.so it's amazing,right?
so 3 of us were so crazy with this.LOL!!
it looked totally cool!!because yen in's phone is android phone so it can function like that:)

we reached there around 7.45pm,we had a simple dinner that they provided for us.
hmm....i'm nervous and cold so i didn't eat much.
not feeling well because it's too cold on the back stage.

the comment for myself was great:)i didn't do any mistake.i'm satisfied!:)
but you know what?yen in fell down in the last part.ally and i were shocked!
OMG!it's horrible but luckily we stand behind so everyone can't see yen in.
this is the best part.luckilyyy.....

after the performance,we took pictures again.
we fond of the camera.especially yong qian.LOL!!
and this was the result.show you guys again!:)

 sorry for the blurness

 ally and i:)

yeah,due to the width of the stage.we run so far and rushing.
and this was the rush dance ever!but i love this dance.so adorable:)
the dance used up to 5 minutes,it's long.i know xD
and we used 3 equipment.short fan,long fan and umbrella in the dance.

that's all!:)
going to back uni later.
i wanna stay at homeee!!!

phobia

yesterday was public holiday and obviously i've no where to go.
just stay on campus and all the activities are in the campus.

i woke up 11am yesterday,it's cool and nice by waking up late in hostel.it was so fresh!
i still feel sleep after i woke up,it's hilarious,right?
so,what i've done yesterday was surfing internet,study(just a little) and sleep!LOL!!
i slept for the whole day.i slept at 3.45pm after back from lunch.OMG!
that's how i use my public holiday.
my schedule was so perfect,don't you think so?LOL!

okay,i think i'm out of the tangent!
hmm....i think i start to get some phobia of someone.
i'm not going to mention his name and i really freaked out because of him!
i don't really know why he keep staring at people especially me!
OMG!had dinner with him and my room mate and he did stare at me for sooooo long time.

actually everytime he stare at me,i knew that and i feel that!
haiz.....can anyone tell me why he keep staring at people?
WHY???
he actually stares everyone,seriously!

but last night was special,he stared at me for a veryyyyy long time!
i just look down and concentrate on my spagetti,i don't wanna know there's someone staring at me!
it's so uncomfortable and uneasy to me!
OMG!
i just wanna scold him loudly!
i really want to do that but i didn't.

can you imagine that a person using a big eyes and stare at you without reason?
sometimes he's just open his mouth when staring at you.this is what my friend told me.YUCKSSS!!!
i can just resist him by not knowing and not looking at him.that's all what i can do!

nowadays,most of the course mates do really ANTI him.
because of his weird attitude!i can't stand of it man!!
help me!

because of this,i get phobia of the weirdo!!
today,i didn't talk to him,even a word!
i really hope that i'm not going to see him but i can't,he's my course mate!
ARGHH!!
i always feel bad because i treat a person like that.
but if i treat him like my best friend,then who will let me go?

by the way,just had  english assesment this morning.
it's tough!i'm lack of time,i think most of us do!
how?i don't really wanna fail in english.this assesment contain 20%

i'm so stress in this school,it's only the 4th week and i felt the strong feeling of stress.
it's stressful,honestly!
don't judge people by it's cover.
this really apply to my course mates.
they're so talkative and playful in the class but please don't treat them like a playful and not concentrating student because they able to answer all the question !
WTH!they're not listening and can answer questions.
my friends are insane,so can you imagine what's my situation?they actually really work hard,it's just that you can't see!

and i heard that you have to get 60 for your average so that you can apply to nottingham in UK.
when you apply,not necessary you get that!
this is my dream,my target!
i promise that i won't let this go easily.
this is the aim i come to nottingham university!
this is what my parents' hope!
i can't just ruin it because of my lazyness.
WAKE UP SARAH!

i wanna get there!no matter what!
pray hard and work hard! 

that's all for today and thanks for reading!
have end my complain:)
i can tell you who's the guy if i meet you,kay?
if you willing to know. :)

okay,off to study now!

*live with happiness everyone:) 

after 2 months

had a mini gathering between 4 person:)
we didn't meet each other for 2 months since spm result day.
we discussed on thrusday then we just simply meet up up yesterday.
it was surprised that i managed to go with them.
COOL!!:)

we had lunch together at chloe and my favourite japanese restaurant-- RAKUZEN 
because chloe suggested to have japanese food then 1 utama is quite far for us and i have to rush to ballet class and there would be not much time for us to spend .
so i just told them to go to the nearest one,desa park city.

i drove there after my piano class and fetch them from perlie's house.i was the driver of the day!LOL!
i'm so proud because i was told that i drove steadily and safe:)
and they are the first gang of friends who sit my car.
you gurls should feel proud! xD

we reached there around 12.05pm because my mom told me that the restaurant will only open at 12pm
as usual,i ordered unagi zen and perlie ordered the same thing too:)
however,yee ting ordered udon and chloe was the chicken with the terriyaki sauce.
yummmyyyy.....all of them are delicious.

 unagi♥

 chloe and perlie

yee ting and sarah

   i love this soooo much,she's cute! *credits to me:)

i didn't realise that chloe took this one and i know i looked cool in estima!

we didn't take many pictures yesterday because chloe has forgotten to bring along her camera and i didn't charge my camera.sad case....
but we started our cam-whore time in the car before my camera battery is exhausted!

after my camera was totally out of the battery,we used perlie's phone and continue our cam-whore :)
when the traffic light goes red,we started capture again and again:)

 BFF♥

 we did look so sweet,right?

that's all for today and luckily i didn't late for my ballet class:)

and yeah,that's why i tied my hair into a bun.

all the best everyone,especially to chloe because she's going to start her college life tomorrow:)

*so happy to meet you girls yesterday,i did enjoy with all of you:) 

done and exhausted

yeah,i've done 3 presentations this week.
OMG!it's tiring man,i don't really know how i went through this exhausting week!
i felt thankful to all my presentation group members:)
thanks for your compliment everyone.
i didn't satisfy with some of my presentation because it's not fluent especially the malaysian studies.

i'm satisfactory with my social science and business part.
but ms sugu was not satisfied with my question 1.will get it right next time:)
let's go to malaysian studies part,rachel and i finished it yesterday.it's rushed!
totally rushing!!
hmm....and the thing was what i found in the previous was not the right information so i have to delete everything and re-do again.
we stayed in library for 4 hours and still haven't finish yet.we finished it at night.
thanks rachel so much:)
and luckily the madam didn't say anything because she was eating and sleep during the presentation.LOL!!

on wednesday was the business presentation.then i wore a simple t-shirt and a short pants in the morning.
i saw most of them were wearing semi-formal and some even formal dress code.
then i returned to my room and change when break time.
hmm.....and my group didn't present anything because the time was not enough so postpone to thrusday.
WASTING MY TIME! 

         daniel,preparing the business presentation or facebook-ing?

 max,the only russian and he wore sooo formal and a pair of SLIPPER!LOL!!!

 sachen,he was the most formal one:)

 before presentation,tutorial class

 during the presentation in the tutorial class

i think that's all for today.
i'm so tired and i'm at home now:)COOL!
home sweet home :D

take care ya everyone.
going out tomorrow with my classmates!

lack of time

hey all!
here comes my 3rd week in university.
i'm getting freaking busy this week.
there's 3 presentations in this week!
OMG!
it's pack!i need more time.
pleaseeeee....
anyone can sell me you time?

though 2 among them are just normal presentation for tutorial class but we still have to put our best to complete it,ain't?
another 1 is malaysian studies' presentation and this will be given marks and it's part of the final exam.
it's important man!
and the bad news is,1 of my group member switched to the foundation in science.
so how we continue our work?

berd,i'll miss you so much!
i'm glad to have a fantastic friend like you.
don't forget me if not i'll kill you!LOL!
just kidding:)
all the best in your life and you can just look for me if you've any problem ya:)

anyway,good luck to me for this week.
hope everything will be fine!
and get a high marks for the malaysian studies' presentation.

GO SARAH!:)

 wat,evaaaaaaa :D

*the weather is just hot! hot! and hot!
drink more water ya everyone and take good care of yourself!

surgery

readaaa,
i'm just came back from pantai hospital because i involved to the grommet surgery.
i'm fine everyone:)
don't worry.

this is my very first time for surgery.
there's nervous,for sure!
the doctor gave me anesthesia then i slept over for around 20 to 25 minutes,i think:)
the operation room was soooo cold,freaking cold!
it's normal!and legs were shaking actually.
but the doctors and nurses are very friendly.
they talked to you so you won't feel so nervous and scared.

it was quite scary when the nurses pushed your bed into the operation room
the feeling was like you're going to heaven or hell,LOL!!
at the moment,that's something in my mind.
"i really have to love my life,love everyone!"
you can also see a big clock in the operation room.
hmm.....it looked more like countdown.

when the doctor was giving me anesthesia,it looked like those drama,who breathe in then will fell asleep.
i was thought i'm going like that.
LOL!!
i breathe the thing was oxygen,not anesthesia.
anesthesia was injected by doctor into my body.
seriously,my eyes close slowly....
after that,i didn't know what happen:)
the whole procedure took me 15 to 20 minutes:)
no big deal!

i reckon 10 to 15 minutes after the surgery,i awake.
LOL!!my eyes were like heavy and headache.
hmm....i was like wow!i woke up so fast...

after that the nurses pushed me back to the day care room.
hmm.....the nurse said i was so strong:)
can even jump already.
the services are good!they treated you nicely
actually,i was curious that whether is there a thing inside my ear now?
i have no any feeling.
it should be pain or something else...
hmm....*thinking*

after discharge,i requested my mom for starbucks:)
hehe....
so nice,huh?
a operation got a starbucks drinks!
i bought it actually:)

 frappucino:)

anyway,i'm fine now:)
i'm going to ballet class later.
don't worry about me!
i'm okay:)

last but not the least,thanks so much for the lucks from everyone!
appreciate so much!!!!and i knew that everyone is care about me.i'm so blessed!
ain't it?

so,take care everyone!
love ya!

public holiday

happy holiday everyone!
it's LABOUR DAY!

my grandparents overnight in my house since last night.
hmm.....daddy went to overseas so we can just celebrate our own.
yeah,planned to FULL HOUSE today just to capture?

anyway,sunway giza is a nice place which has a relax enviroment.
I LOVE THERE:)
you guys must go there if you have the opportunity.
reached there about 11am.

 the restaurant still in a close status

 me,mommy and grandma:)

 grandma,woots!!!

 pinky car:)

we didnt went in for our lunch because it's too expensive so we just took some pictures and just went away.LOL!!
but i wish i could dine in there:)
it's ok,next time!!

tomorrow is holiday so i can stay at home extra a day:)
YAY!!! home is the best place ever...
ain't it?

*good night everyone:)