i know

God, I know you're with me right now :'( I always know there's one more chance and I will pick up myself to another stronger stage. I knowwww.... I know I'm not as weak as what I think :'( I know...

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Am in depressing situation now. I really don't know what I can do. I feel so sorry for you guys and disappoint you guys again when I'm down. Sorry.

I'm just so stress, for piano exam which is one month later, for my result because dad keep asking about it, being a useless person at home. Everyday, I just sleep until afternoon, woke up and eat then watch TV and take a nap again, woke up in the evening and TV then dinner or fetch brothers to tuition, surfing internet after some TV until midnight. My daily routine is just this, can you imagine? It's just so shameful to tell people I'm just staying at home and doing nothing!!! :(

Some of you might know which I started to write some "3 things you feel grateful for the day". Since two days ago, I've stop writing about that because I don't know what I'm so grateful about, there's nothing for me to feel grateful.

Alright, I should stop writing now. Time to sleep. Hope through sleeping, could give me peace.

Good night.


Love,Sarah♥

Block you!

i know i grow rounder :(

Honestly, been emo this few days. Staying at home and totally lifeless. Being a driver at home, keep fetching my brothers up and down all the time, everyday. This shouldn't be how I live for summer break, I believe.

I've spoken to my mom about the voluntary work which I found in website and the organizer had reply me but my mom refuse me to go. She confessed that the location is not good because it's in Chow Kit where it's kind of complicated places. From what I always heard from people, there's a place with pubs, clubs, prostitutes and I've not been there personally so I don't know. But what I know is, it's so kind of the organizer to reply my email. He can choose not to.

Opportunities are always present infront of you, I always think that I am the one who's keep catching it blindly but no one actually pushing me to get it or cheer besides me except you, you know who you are. God, are you there? or you have another plan for me? Yes, I always have faith on there's always some reason for something to happen or not to happen. I'll give the faith again for this time.

Sometimes, I just hate adults, they're the one who keep telling us how cruel is the real world, they rarely give us hope. Children are born to be innocent and dream big but there's always destroyer.

I really I can do something in this world, someone keep telling me to fight for my dream but I have no courage to do that, so sorry to say. This is how the environment raised me up, I have no rights to say no if I don't like something.

Since young, my dad has planned for me everything! People asked me some questions, I will just say "my dad said..... my dad said... " I'm wondering is it shameful or should I feel proud. Somebody please tell me. Alright, you might tell me my parents love me, but I have my own dream and I think because they still have the typical thinking.

It's so funny, I asked my dad and mom once what's your biggest thing or the most important stuff for you to accomplish in your life. You know what they told me? To have next generation, which means you must continue your generation with your gene. Oh gooood, I totally have no comment for it. It might be true but for me, it's not all about!

And here, I've read true this articles. It's interesting though yet saddening because seeing people going to the path which is not their favor. *articles full with pictures.
"Not Where They Hoped They'd Be"
http://www.theatlantic.com/infocus/2012/06/not-where-they-hoped-theyd-be/100320/

Another one is about Women, why there's women who has no courage to be the top and here are the reasons. I really think that women please don't look down on yourself, you know that you can do more than you think. In fact, women can do better in multitasking then men. :)
"The Real Reason There Aren't More Women on Boards:"
http://www.forbes.com/sites/shenegotiates/2012/06/04/the-real-reason-there-arent-more-women-on-boards/

So ya, that's all for today. Thank you for reading my dear readers :) Sleep well.

Love,Sarah♥

3 things

hello there! how's life treating you? I'm fine but not good in sometimes and so sorry for random at most of the time. oh ya, I'm back from japan yesterday! :) It was great but frankly speaking, go once to Japan is enough, not more than that but it's still worth it to pay Japan a visit. Will tell you the details in the Japan entry ya. So stay tuned. :)

So here, went out today to 1 Utama. Initially was celebrating Johnny's birthday but he called me last minutes that he couldn't make it but we still go, just went for a quick lunch, movie-promethus and pick present for Johnny. That's all. Promethus was freaky and creepy as well, it'll scare you all the time. I even shouted once in the cinema, it was awkward man!! But overall, it was okay, nothing much to comment about it. Haha.

I came across someone's status on facebook and I think this is a great idea and good habit! :) You do write 3 down 3 things that you feel grateful of before you go to bed. it's easy, please don't think this is ridiculous or it's just a piece of shit. Time by time, when you look back what have you written down, you'll increase your happiness and always appreciate what you have. Don't you think this is a brilliant idea? :) You'll sure enjoying the process of accumulating them everyday.

Oh ya, I'm working out on the promise I've made, read news frequently! So, here to share with you some articles which I found they're interesting! :)

Do you ever thought about the nature of forgetting things of yours will affect your future? This is what common parents did, they always forget about their child and they'll be left behind without any noticing. HAHA!! Even UK prime minister, David Cameron left his child somewhere. So please, daddy and mummy, look after your child before they got their own mobile phone! haha. you know what i mean.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-18394690

Another article is about "Truth is, we all lie" This is extremely interesting! Now, I admit I actually lying everyday. LOL!! I mean the minor lie, not the big one okay, bear in mind. Haha. But still, I hope to find out more about this. Which nerves or cells or whatever make us lie, like just automatically. Haha. :) Read this out!
http://www.rappler.com/life-and-style/6082-yes,-we-all-lie-here-s-why

That's all for today people, thank you for reading as always if you do :)

*guys are never stop lying, this is true. I truly believe.

Love,Sarah♥

May,foundation ends

Hello there, how you doing? May 30 is my last day of my foundation program, something regret and hilarious happened, some of you might know, some of you may not. By the way, I'm not going to tell here. It's a shame on me.

Something in me is not complete, I will not only tell you until August. Stay tuned then. I have not much plan on my summer break, initially, was planning to get an internship but companies don't recruit foundation students, so ya. But, to think back now, I have too many stuffs to do, not too say too many, is many. Piano exam on July, got to practise seriously hard, I'm not gonna fail this exam, twice a week of ballet class as usual, going to travel with friends to Kota Kinabalu (have to train up my stamina and learn how to breathe properly).

Actually, I would like to find a job but I'm just afraid that I would sacrifice so many things. My dad doesn't allow me to find some improper job such as sales girl or some works that I wouldn't learn much. So, this summer will be a boring break for me. Anyway, will find something to equip myself, oh ya, nowadays I am pushed to read news everyday since I don't read news. haha. Somehow, I will read some articles and news everyday, gotta push myself. I will share with you guys when I do blogging ya. :)

On wednesday, 30th May 2012, I was packing all the stuffs in the hotel in order to check out on time and lighten my burden. There were too many stuffs and I didn't know what to pack first and where to starts but my friend told me to packed clothes first, hmm.. what a great idea then I succeed to pack everything in an hour? It was so sad to leave my one-year-so-called-nest. I will not forget everything there,all the memories and the settings.

so this is how my table looks like for a year,a bit messy.

the rack

these were not the hard part I mentioned, it was my cupboard, full of unnecessary stuffs and clothes but I didn't get to take any picture of it.haha. *just leave it.

I guess that's all for this post but glad that God gave me experience that I craved for and should have experience it. After that incident, finally, I knew who is good and fake. Thank you people :) I was so touched that I have friends who are still care about me. Don't worry, I have already been instilled with positive bond! :)

Things happen for some reasons

Light. Love. Life

Love,Sarah ♥