Are you worthy?

Since I've been studying in University for almost a year. I realized a lot of stuffs, I gained a lot, I learned much but i know it never enough. What I want to say is, the crucial part i found out in University is "What's your value?" Are you worth enough to let me stick to you? Are you smart enough to answer my question?

Unfortunately, it's true when I found out around me. Do you even ask those people who has lower result than you and answer your doubt in academic? You wouldn't, am I right?  You would just ask people who are smart enough to answer your questions. Wouldn't you? Unfortunately, I do that as well. I'm not trying to generalize everyone into this category, I apologize if you feel insulted.

You can see this situation much clearly during revision and exam period. Smart people will surrounded by questions which asked by friends. However, those people who are not that smart would just study alone or even you know how the question works, nobody would ask you how.

Indeed, people always determine you based on your result, But I always believe that got an excellent outcome doesn't mean you'll have a bright future or you don't if got a bad one. I admire one of my lecturer who's from Italy, she said that she doesn't believe in exam because you wouldn't know are you in the good condition during exam or what if your brain are not functioning well at that time?

It's always sad that see this situation around me. Let me tell you something, thank God that let me see something what i should have! Throughout the whole semester, I saw somebody who always skipped classes, don't attend any tutorials and the top 3 to exit the exam hall. I always thought that they're just lazy, they don't put any effort, they're just so wrong. But you know what, the person who supposed feel wrong is ME, one of the day, Peter and I planned to not to sleep for the sake of accounting paper. So we stayed in computer lab and did revision for the whole night. When I was about to go to toilet halfway, I passed through learning hub (another part of computer lab), I saw those students whom I described just now (often skipped the classes/ exit the exam hall) were studying hard there and it was 5am. At that moment, my assumption just gone wrong! I felt guilty but with a smile on my face because I know they might be a shinning star in the future. They are international students actually :)

Seriously, thank God. He let me learnt something, don't judge a person's achievement by it's result. if you do, you'll never right! Students who go poor result doesn't mean he/she didn't put effort on it, just maybe he/she didn't has the guts during exam?haha.just kidding.

So, will you ask yourself quietly next time when you meet someone, "Are you worthy enough?" :)

Cheers people!


Love,Sarah♥

ESCAPE

it's so cooling and relaxing sitting alone in the room, do blogging, read some articles, listening to some musics. this is how i escape myself from the real life. i always prefer the time i'm putting my mind in peace is the time without facebook.lol.

i think,to keep yourself away from reality for short period is a necessity for everyone even just for few minutes. it will definitely helps you no matter in your physicality or in mentality.

i am always wondering,how many people still reading my blog. i knew there's few but not sure how many. i'm not a professional blogger and of course i no need lots of reader. surprisingly, there's one canadian relative of mine came to me, "i've checked out your blog, i just bookmarked it actually". this kind of sentence always amaze me. i didn't know actually there's people who's reading my blog, word by word,line by line. thank you people! :)

i guess you're one of the reason why i still keep my blog alive other than blogging is fun,is niche space to spare of the mess environment out there. always appreciate! :) most of the time, to blog here really makes me feel much more better when something is keeping inside me.

there were so many times for me to think what should i do before i die. i know it sounds ridiculous but you just live once! i'll try everything in this world if i could, i didn't mean drugs or bad stuffs.haha. you know what? my mom actually allowed me to go malacca after my accounting paper next friday. this is the very first time i'm going outstation with my friends. i'm seriously exciting till wanna jump high! but somehow, i was scared when my mom just allowed me, i afraid she doesn't love me that's why she let me do whatever i want. the feeling just struck me like that without any reason,guess i'm a kid who's taught strictly since young, i can just see my friends go everywhere they want and i'm the one who always stay at home.

the elder you are, the more mixture feeling you have. you'll tend to think a lot even it's just a simple thing. my friend told me,why there's many people didn't manage to succeed in their life because they're trap in assumptions! indeed, assumptions are the things that stop you by doing what you want. they give you doubts,no action will be brought out.

my foundation program is going to end very very soon.i'll definitely miss everything in this year,i have a fruitful foundation life. especially meeting you,my fallen angel guardian. ♥ 

"He will lead you if you believe in Him. =) "


Love,Sarah ♥ 

sleep sleep sleep

it's 3.15am now and i'm not sleeping yet.guess what am i doing? i was doing my CV.lol!! this is one of the thing makes me insane.it has been few weeks time already and yet the procrastination kills me and stop me from doing that. issshhh! but somehow, my friend pushed me to finish my CV by tonight and finally i'm done! *yawn 

i'm satisfied!

it's time to say good night to the world! :) hehehe.

hormer is sleeping *shhh and should i!

sweet dream =)

Love,Sarah♥

what's next?

my finals is just right on next week, exactly left 7 days and this will be the last exam for my foundation. i started to feel scared from the starting of this week,i mean seriously. thats why i'm emo.

my life is just like in the washing machine, i'm just turning around but what's next for me? i don't know. honestly speaking, i want to stay in Malaysia for 1 more year because mentally,i'm not ready. you might ask, if you're not ready now, when are you going to be ready and you might not ready forever. literally, i'll definitely go overseas during my 2nd year and this is one of my "MUST TO DO" in my list. after i've expressed to my dad, he didn't respond much so what i can do is just W.A.I.T. thank you for prayed for me, i hope God will answer my prayer too. :)

these days, i keep thinking what should i do next and why this why that. it's true, sometimes, you don't get what you want because God has a better plan for you,i believe this. =) i do hope i'll do what i should as well as you guys too.  people nowadays are doing what they don't like and most of them don't know why they're doing this. now,i'm out of my mind. head-cracking. what to do. what's the plan. me and my friend are going to give a try on Youth Leadership Academy, i was told that there was 300++ applicants last year but only 23 are selected. it was seriously tough though! what so great about this program? it was organized by McKinsey, one of the top company in the world. they want to seek for passionate, ambitious and thoughtful youth. the duration of this program is 2 months and you'll be meeting CEOs from different company and they'll be mentoring you throughout the whole program. interested,take a look here --> Youth Leadership Academy  i'm gonna try this out, if i fail, no harm to try and i'll never regret,at least i know i tried.

i seriously want to do something for this world, i don't want to regret when i die, i want to leave legacy in my life because i believe everyone has a purpose to live in this world, like what my friend said. God don't create you for nothing, for sure there's mission for you to complete, you'll just need to find out yourself.

oh ya, something i came across this afternoon, my friend shared and i found it interesting and it's so true!! :) check this out!
http://blogs.hbr.org/cs/2012/04/stop_documenting_start_experienc.html#.T6JPj9tRljc.facebook

sometimes, the more i think, the more i feel suffer. stop thinking then and i should stop writing now.
all the best to whom going to have finals! :)

Love,Sarah ♥