what's in your mind?

while sitting infront of TV or looking through the internet. i believe there will be some commercials or quotes which is related to don't stop to dream. it is so encouraging that there's something reminds you of your dream and don't afraid to chase the dream. what do you think?

when all the says or ads came across,the word "D.R.E.A.M." really pushed me to chase my dream. once i saw the word,the impulsiveness in me really made me feel like wanna get my dream done,right now! but wait, what's my dream? nothing came across my mind, i stared on the TV for few seconds and was trying to think what is my dream actually? i was thinking so hard but i can't get any conclusion.

i do believe that everyone has dream before and the dreams are extremely great and beautiful especially when we talked about dream when we were young. kids are innocent and clean,they could imagine anything that is possible,nothing is impossible to them :) on the other hand, when the age number getting increase year by year, our dream getting smaller and smaller, we don't dare to dream big because we knew what is real. yes,indeed, when you're getting elder, there'd more obstacles in your life. some will be big one, some will be small. even some minor obstacle will getting serious. but never forget, one will success because he/she dares to dream big! the person don't care about how people feel or what comment it is. just believe in yourself, if you don't believe yourself,nobody will.

my little cousin :)

you can see how innocent they are ♥

i don't see worries in them.

"Human live for DREAM!"

Love,Sarah ♥

threat

Hey people! happy chinese new year to who are celebrating out there and happy holiday to who are not celebrating officially.haha. how's your chinese new year or holiday so far? for me,my chinese new year is just so so, nothing much can do,visiting relatives and attend reunion dinner everyday. i'm given two weeks so semester break and i hope i can accomplish what i should have done during the break and get myself ready for the next semester a.k.a. last semester of foundation.

i supposed blog some new year stuffs but unfortunately, i'm going to blog something which keep inside my heart. honesty, i don't talk much recently and i don't know why unless it's interesting topic. my mom has been complaining that i didn't talk much with her. i found out that sometimes it's unnecessary to discuss about it if there's answer for you or you can save time not to talk about some issue. i knew it's so horrible and terrible for being such daughter. but i really apologize. i don't feel like talking or giving no response because i think it's unnecessary.

my dad planned that i'll be going abroad for my further studies this year for my degree but my mom is not really happy with my responsiveness towards her so she said "you'll not be going to UK if your behavior is like that and if you come back later than 10pm from friends' gathering or whatsoever." i was like omg, it is just a threat for me. i tried to be silent in the car because i knew i'll never win them. yes,i be silent most of the time because i don't want to have some argument. "the best solution is being a silent" nonetheless, i couldn't agree with this statement more than whatever it is.

nowadays, i strive so hard because i don't want let people down, don't want to make my dad disappointed and i acknowledge that i'm getting more unsociable nowadays, i just chose to be the quiet one. nobody understand the stress, nobody understand the desire, nobody understand the struggle. what for i tell others? i'm not a loudspeaker. i can just express my feeling through blog or maybe facebook or maybe him. no more i can share to. social network and the high-tech can really make people lean towards to unsociable, sometimes people chose not to speak but finger typing.

anyway,i'll try my best to get out from there. the place that i don't want to be. sometimes,i'm just not good in expressing in oral and words. the only thing i know is face expression.that's all!

new year,new sleeping dress :)

*i have lots to accomplish in my life, i really hope everything can be done before i die.

Love,Sarah ♥

happy belated 2012--i'm paranoid kid

Hello there! how's 2012 treating you guys? i hope everything goes well for you guys. sorry for not updating this blog for almost 3 weeks. actually, i've lots to tell here :) alright,i've finished my semester 1 final exam yesterday. everything has ended, the sleepless night has ended, book has to be kept for resting, my brain has to be shut down and refresh again. it's had been 2 weeks of sleepless night. lots of happening during these 2 weeks. in conclusion,i've tried my best, i've done what i should done, other than that will leave to God. i just hope everything will be paid off. i really hope. during the revision/study,i tried to enjoy what i was doing. of course,it will be struggle at first but it will be much more better time by time. one thing you must know,if you're struggling or suffering at the moment, it means you're  standing out of your comfort zone and you're growing :) *quote by Peter. 

oh wait,what happened to me was i cried few times during revision in the library because i felt the stress in me, i couldn't hold the environment strain, i couldn't stand out from the peer's pressure. all the factors came together and i didn't know how to manage it. i've thought about i want to drop out,not to study anymore but something suddenly came into my mind,people who is physically disable like Nick Vujicic,he never give up himself so i'm not eligible to say the work "GIVE UP". :) i knew i'm not a person who is good in chilling my self,manage the stress but i'll do better next semester,i'm adapting because i've never feel that stress before even during SPM.

After all,everything is asked to pause but i still couldn't come out from the pressure,the stress. i don't feel relax at all because i knew holiday isn't a holiday for me.i cannot rest during chinese new year holiday and semester break because one's ended,one's coming and i still have work to work on,i still have job. "i believe i can achieve the expectation,i believe and i will." i don't want to screw everything up because my bad planning :(

let me tell you something interesting and crazy,i had 2 days of just sleeping 2 hours because of studying for the next day exam. on the last day, since the library close at 1am and we haven't finish our studying so i decided to study in TCR a.k.a. computer lab which is on for 24/7. i told myself to do something crazy before the semester ends so i asked Peter to stay in TCR and not to sleep at night and we went to exam hall with our very informal attire,t-shirts,short pants and slipper with the sleeping face. fyi,i slept 2 hours and he slept 3 hours, we took turn and sleep.you see,how awesome we were! :P i was so impressed by myself.lol!!

actually,i started to believe something. it could be described as amazing! so sorry to say that i'd be betraying one because i found a better one that can fill the empty space and live in me. always feel appreciate :) thank you for giving courage and giving me the power. ****  <-- this is not about relationship,kay? this is about other thing. *secret.

alright,there are 2 more days to the first day of chinese new year,my chinese new year mood is still not here.my soul is still living in the exam period.why why why?? anyway,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO YOU GUYSSS!!! enjoy with your family ya and don't forget to appreciate what you're having now.

that's all for this post,it's long enough to type and read.haha....
gonna have dinner with family now.ciaozzz :))

pictures are taken during studying.

room sweet room :) i'm a princess,hehe.

*don't forget to take picture with your fabulous new year clothes ya :)

Love,Sarah ♥