Hello there! how's 2012 treating you guys? i hope everything goes well for you guys. sorry for not updating this blog for almost 3 weeks. actually, i've lots to tell here :) alright,i've finished my semester 1 final exam yesterday. everything has ended, the sleepless night has ended, book has to be kept for resting, my brain has to be shut down and refresh again. it's had been 2 weeks of sleepless night. lots of happening during these 2 weeks. in conclusion,i've tried my best, i've done what i should done, other than that will leave to God. i just hope everything will be paid off. i really hope. during the revision/study,i tried to enjoy what i was doing. of course,it will be struggle at first but it will be much more better time by time. one thing you must know,if you're struggling or suffering at the moment, it means you're standing out of your comfort zone and you're growing :) *quote by Peter.
oh wait,what happened to me was i cried few times during revision in the library because i felt the stress in me, i couldn't hold the environment strain, i couldn't stand out from the peer's pressure. all the factors came together and i didn't know how to manage it. i've thought about i want to drop out,not to study anymore but something suddenly came into my mind,people who is physically disable like Nick Vujicic,he never give up himself so i'm not eligible to say the work "GIVE UP". :) i knew i'm not a person who is good in chilling my self,manage the stress but i'll do better next semester,i'm adapting because i've never feel that stress before even during SPM.
After all,everything is asked to pause but i still couldn't come out from the pressure,the stress. i don't feel relax at all because i knew holiday isn't a holiday for me.i cannot rest during chinese new year holiday and semester break because one's ended,one's coming and i still have work to work on,i still have job. "i believe i can achieve the expectation,i believe and i will." i don't want to screw everything up because my bad planning :(
let me tell you something interesting and crazy,i had 2 days of just sleeping 2 hours because of studying for the next day exam. on the last day, since the library close at 1am and we haven't finish our studying so i decided to study in TCR a.k.a. computer lab which is on for 24/7. i told myself to do something crazy before the semester ends so i asked Peter to stay in TCR and not to sleep at night and we went to exam hall with our very informal attire,t-shirts,short pants and slipper with the sleeping face. fyi,i slept 2 hours and he slept 3 hours, we took turn and sleep.you see,how awesome we were! :P i was so impressed by myself.lol!!
actually,i started to believe something. it could be described as amazing! so sorry to say that i'd be betraying one because i found a better one that can fill the empty space and live in me. always feel appreciate :) thank you for giving courage and giving me the power. **** <-- this is not about relationship,kay? this is about other thing. *secret.
alright,there are 2 more days to the first day of chinese new year,my chinese new year mood is still not here.my soul is still living in the exam period.why why why?? anyway,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO YOU GUYSSS!!! enjoy with your family ya and don't forget to appreciate what you're having now.
that's all for this post,it's long enough to type and read.haha....
gonna have dinner with family now.ciaozzz :))
pictures are taken during studying.
room sweet room :) i'm a princess,hehe.
Love,Sarah ♥
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