Friday, December 30, 2011

i hate sleeping

yes,you didn't read it wrongly. i hate sleeping! i'm a person who is well-known with sleeping.i can sleep the whole day.i can sleep up to 16 hours. but these days, since last week, i couldn't sleep well, at all. don't ask me for reason,i don't know why.

i tried not to think before sleeping but everything just came into my mind. mixture of everything until i don't know what's in my mind :( i found hard time when sleeping. nowadays, i slept at 3 or 4am. eventhough i'm fatigue, but i just can't sleep after i switch off computer and everything.

sleeping is a nightmare for me, i'll choose not to sleep if there's a choice for me. but my time are messed up,i woke up in the afternoon everyday so don't ask me how's the morning sun looks like, how's the birds sing. in the coming day, i do hope there's good night sleep for me. i slept and there were always bad dream.

i'm afraid of sleeping now :(

i want to sleep well...

Love,Sarah

Thursday, December 29, 2011

"alone is okay"

something bad is gonna happen? i don't know

leave me alone and i'll be alright :)
everything will be back to the origin :)
someone is whispering in my ears.

i am the only one who can help myself, no one else.
i must prove to myself and you.

it's okay to leave me alone. :)

awesome! people keep changing every seconds.

you wouldn't know what will happen next.
they are just so extreme.


so sorry once again :(
i really don't want to be the one who is blocking on your way.

anyway,i can do this when i'm alone! :)

Love,Sarah

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

reflection of 2011

call me weirdo...

Few days ago, i was reflecting what i've done the entire year. is that meaningful? is that satisfied? what have i learnt? all of these questions came in my mind.

firstly, i thought about my 2011 is quite dull,nothing much special. but oh ya, i thought about it carefully, from january til now,december. day by day,month by month. it actually changed me a lot! let me tell you, until now, 2011 is the most meaningful and i grew rapidly this year. of course, you would think 18 is a turning age of life. indeed! but for me,is more than that!

so here,i would like to tell you what i've done throughout this year and it will be summarize period by period ya.

January-March 
i did nothing much. since it's the period which i have to wait for my SPM result, my dad brought me to British Council to let me improve my english. surprisingly, i met lots of people,they are fantastic, everyone were just so friendly,you must admit that! i've open-eyed during this time because different nationality,different ages,different races were studying in the same class.we actually have no any boundaries during conversation. this is just so awesome for me :) i've learnt a lot in one month time. obviously, my english slightly improved,based on what my relative said to me. :)
you guys can just look out the pictures.
album: CLICK HERE ♥

April-July
Oh ya, this is when i start my university life. initially,i was just alone in the double-decker room, class, cafe and everywhere for the first few days,there's no any internet access,i still remember. i have no friends but gladly, met some funny and interesting peeps in the uni. since there's just april intake,so we conquered the whole uni. my class was just so great! everyone was so unity, did everything together. in the middle of semester, something sad happened, i choose not to remember it. the friendship did not last long, the class did not look appealing, the smile no longer put on people's cute face. but anyway, maybe this is the best way for us because we can know one's identity easily.

throughout the whole semester,i have my perfect roommate, i have my awesome hostel gang. we had dinner together. i still remember, 6 of us, we never failed to keep the appointed that chat in Peter's room until late night even we chat till 4am and crave for McD breakfast. all i remember :) but as you know, good thing never last long.

anyway,i have to acknowledge that i met lots of awesome people in uni in this period.HOOORAAYY for that! :) and yet,some of them are complicated.

not to forget to tell you that, i chose not to go Paris during June because of my test. how great i am! :) but i cried that time because i miss my family and i cannot go.thank you someone for comforting me and ask me not be an emomo girl :) *cheers!

after the semester 0, we are given 3-4 months semester break!
album: CLICK HERE ♥

July-August
my meaningful life changing experience!! Before the semester ends, there's a guy,Jing Shen,Local Committee President came into my class and promoted the AIESEC and ask us go to exchange. i took this opportunity and i was in a daze when my dad said "you can go". omggg!!! this internship is around 6-8 weeks and i went alone. i tell you, it was extremely adventurous. i've never been that adventurous before in my life because i always go travel with my family,not ALONE! before the day i go, i felt like giving up since i've heard a lot of negative news of Philippines-rapped,fight,steal. all of them sounds so dangerous,scary and creepy.

but, the journey of Philippines changed me internally and externally. i got to stand on one's side and think how they think, feel how they feel. appreciate more and you'll feel great. the kids there appreciate every single thing although you just gave them story telling or a sweet as a reward. i love kids since that. before that,i used to refuse to interact with kids because they are annoying and they couldn't understand you.

when i was there, i have a mentor who keep telling me use your love and teach them and they can feel it, care them like your sister and brother. ahhh...this was the best ever! :) thank you mentor who chat with me from night till the sun rises. HAHAHA!! i will never forget that moment. thank you :)

Not to mention,i met a lot of people from different countries, background and our mother tongue is not english but we could communicate well. we love each other. honestly speaking,i will not forget each of the single moment. people,i remember everything,inside the house,outside the house, at day, at night, everywhere and everytime. even the fast food restaurant or some random shops. you should go to exchange and feel yourself.

What people said about Philippines? NAAAAHHHH, it's not at all! Filipinos are soooo friendly, they always say Hi to you,greet you and more! :) even better than Malaysia. *opppssss :P i would go to Philippines again, for travelling,perhaps next year :)

actually,i never thought that Philippines can be that AWESOME!
album: CLICK HERE ♥     *there's 4 albums for philippines,feel free to visit ya.

September-December
it was my birthday month! :) thank you my family and friends who organized for me and who attended this party. glad to see you guys were here after few months. 18 is a blessed birthday to me.thank you! :)
album: BIRTHDAY ALBUM ♥

when semester 1 starts, i'm getting serious. tried not to be like a kid like semester 0, fool around and don't really study hard.i prefer to be a person who study hard and strive for excellent.  =) i did lots of crazy thing during this semester too, only you and me know.hehe :) the latest time i stayed up was 5am because of doing IT assignment. it was so astonish,ain't it?

by the way, one of the weekend, i went to a summit which called youth defined:shape our future. there,i met crazy people,seriously. some of them are entrepreneur for few years,some of them even have good income, a tremendous amount weih.no joke! during the time in the summit, i knew that actually i,every youth can contribute to the country although it just a small one. you can actually make a big change! believe it :) i've learnt a lot, like how to think critically, think out of the box, act before you think! why we must take it so serious? because our proposal is straight pass it to our PM. so,don't play play. haha... :P

i felt so great and appreciate that it was a great experience for me and as 18 years old youth,i got to attend this summit and meet bunch of experience people! :)

*thank you Peter for recommending me.

album: CLICK HERE ♥

a short and precise for christmas, went out to midvalley for christmas dinner with Adam,Peter,Johnny and Sachen on christmas eve. it was simple but great ehh that go out with guys. there's always difference go out with girls and guys.haha.... it's okay,let the pictures tell you how interesting the outing was!

album: CLICK HERE ♥

oh yea,i've made a prezi for this outing too. this is my first attempt,just a simple one :)

prezi: CLICK ME =)


~THE END OF REFLECTION~

so yea, don't you feel it's meaningful? hehe :) i would start to think what i should achieve in 2012. UK is the most crucial aim for me,i hope everything will be fine especially my result.

good luck everyone for the final! :)

that's all guys,it's long enough for you and me.haha...
good night and sweet dream! :)

*i'll be missing you here 

Love,Sarah 

Friday, December 23, 2011

still alive


sorry guys that i have no time to update this blog although now is study break. okay,name is break but not at all because it comes with S.T.U.D.Y. it reminds you have to study,that's all.

i add on this entry just to tell you that i still alive,not dead yet.haha. and i don't want my blog to be that dead.

take care peeps! i have lots to tell you actually. i have lots happening to share with you such as the summit that i went to,the moment to be a santa and the day i went to karaoke with my neighbours :)

Love,Sarah