yesterday,today and tomorrow

This was taken on Monday night, went out with friends at random time for great catch up accompanied by delicious dinner! They are my high school friend. All of us are food lovers, it means all of them are so good in haunting food. Don't know what to eat? Ask them. :D

We actually went to dine in Ben's at Publika, everything was just fine and nice. I had their Ben's chocolate cake, that's just awesome, melted chocolate in the cake with a scoop of vanilla ice cream! *drool* The other were eating some other desserts and looks nice too! Catch up session obviously is making jokes, gossips and sharing! I would really want to have another catch up session with you guys again.

On the same day, in the morning, I went back to my high school to pay my teachers a visit. I'm still contacting with some of the high school teachers, obviously but some of them shifted to somewhere else. That day was the day that school is allowing form 3 students collect the RM100 voucher from teachers in the school. When I met some of the teachers, I was asked "Hey,why are you coming, collecting money?" I was so surprise at first, do I have some money face or whatsoever face saying I want the money? so I'm here to visit teachers, I said. This is one of my must-to-do list during this 2 weeks of break, just take 1 hour time and go back, it feels the same as the time I'm there but the thing different is I've changed, changed to a person who is more experienced and mature. Time flies. Thing changes but the principle, the heart doesn't.

In fact, before I step out from the school front gate, I told myself, I have to be a great person as I've graduated and starting to contribute to the society when I come back next time.

SMK Ideal Heights

I have been going out since monday til yesterday and I had a break today,like totally doing nothing at home. At first, it was really great for me, I can just lay on the bed whenever I like and finish up my application form but Peter and I at last took an hour to edit my CV. LOL! so tiring and I was so moody due to the hot weather and my lips were just at the dry state but I'd been keeping my body hydrated.

Tomorrow will not be a lazy day for me already because will be having meeting and start to pack my luggage because I'm going for 6 days of conference hope everything will be good and beyond my expectation as I don't really have expectation at all.lol

Good night people and see you after a week! :)

Love,Sarah♥

Spring ended

3 months plus of Autumn semester has ended like this,  exam was fine for some module but some not, quite disappointed for my performance for some papers but still proud of surviving till the end.

I should do some reflection for the first semester I guess. For academic wise, honestly, I did learn something but not satisfied as in modules didn't surprise me but during revision, I will always try to get something out from there. Studying/revision doesn't necessary will makes you become the best person but the attitude while dealing with it. Believe or not, when you are studying something, at some point, you tend to be frustrated and  might get something in the end or even nothing. For me, I will think of through this process, it trains me to be a patient, self-motivated person or having critical thinking skill.

Things, try not to see through the surface, the "what" but understand the why.

Alright, that's for the short self-reflection kay, it isn't bad to have consistent self-reflection eh? :)

Oh ya, tell you something, finally, I got to try burger from Myburger lab after exam on Thursday and we drove to Kelana Jaya from Semenyih, see how desperate I am! haha.

 This is actually how the shop looks like, you have to order and pay for the food before you have them.

My burger- Hangover burger

 group picture of the day

Me and ma burger! :)

People asked me how the burger taste like, my burger actually combined beef, hashbrown, vege with charcoal burger. The charcoal burger just a normal bread with black colour,  the beef was awesome but personally, I don't like their hashbrown because it is too sweet which made me feel like i'm eating some crunch sugar. LOL. I'm gonna try others if I'm going again. :)

Currently, I'm reading this article, just click in if you wanna read them. It is written by Idris Jalil, CEO of pemandu.
Why Malaysia wont go bankrupt


Love,Sarah♥

First post of the year

I love my bang,cool right? LOL

Hello Thereeeee! I got too many complaints while not blogging for the erm, past 6 months! I feel really glad having bunch of people who are indirectly care about me, knowing that I didn't blog for long time, asking me what happen to me recently and so on.

Thank you people who let me know that there are people who is caring about me. :) You know who you are. And so here am I. Lets just give you a little bit of update for 2012. Last half year was quite well and was hectic I would say because events, seminars, assignments, presentations in a shot. Well, I will not complain about this but appreciate instead because these every single small stuff is actually make me to realize myself, which way am I heading to. They taught me how to mange my own time too so what do you think? Everyone has their own style to handle them, I believe.

2012 was a totally ups and downs for me but I know I grew in the year,at least a bit, I really appreciate who I met in the year and also people who gone through with me the year. God is planning for you, it's your choice to take up the challenge/question or not. I really thank God for letting me to meet all amazing people who keep me going on. Every single day, person is molding me into the person who I want to be and the person that other wish to see. I do hope I am heading to the right path. I found out what I have to do in the future during the end of 2012, I am really clear about that.

OH WAIT, something is stopping me by. Right now, laying on my bed in my own room. Fear has been attacking me whenever I think about big dreams, it let me pull back myself from thinking,planning or whatsoever. In 2013, I guess I should learn how to defend from fear. This thought is with me all the time, "The elder you grow, the fear is bigger in you." You've heard so much, watched so much, known a lot. Newspapers are telling you how the crime happens, social media are sharing negative social issues, anonymous are telling you how bad is the society behave.

If you're thinking the same thing as me, I urge you to put down your fear with me or else you'll be success in no where because fear is everywhere. Lets make this as a resolution in 2013 kay. :)

"I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear. "
-- Nelson Mandela

I found out that both of my brothers are so talented in their own field, this is what being a sister should feel proud of but what's with me? I don't think I have something to show. Nah, it's fine, I live my life to the best is good enough, haha.

This is one of my first brother (Jack's) photography work piece

My second brother (Sam's) creativity on the sketch board

I chose not to study but blog now because I am having the motivation to blog and the time I've not been blogging but too many posts in my mind which should be typed out.

Oh ya, I have a new instagram account and it's @tomatomeimei Please don't laugh at me, why do I put the name is because I was called as a tomato girl during high school since I do love to eat cherry tomato and my face will look crazily red after have some jog.

I think that's all for first post of the year, it's long enough to read. Take care people and have a great weekend! :)

*I need wisdom


Love,Sarah♥

disagreement out

These few months come along, I find hard to communicate with people especially her. What I said, she just don't agree. I know I'm not a good liaison but I have my own thoughts and it needs agreement. You're not open-minded, I said to her. Her expression changed which I know she don't accept.

Mom, the world changed. I have my own principle I believe, I clearly know what I'm doing all the time even I'll lost somehow.

You can really find that I don't talk much at home because it'll just have arguments, nothing more. Sadly but it's the fact. "hmm...okay...anything..." are my conversation with her. These days I have no appetite to eat much and this get her to complain about it as well, saying that I don't know how to take care of my own, I have a bad habit and all.

Have my dinner now, ciaoz.



Love,Sarah♥

Spirit of a Hero

Today is just a normal day for me but now I learn how to appreciate every single thing in a day, someone told me that you can thank of having some great lunch, thank of talking to someone, thank of walking a distance to home or whatever it is. Life is just simple, doesn't it? =)

weeks back!

I went to watch The Dark Knight Rises this afternoon with mom since there's always cheaper on Wednesday. Let me tell you something which I really have to tell, this movie is just too stunning and every scenes are important one, they have no boring one, trust me. Batman really hits me hardly because it was saying the world needs a hero and people must have their own strong stands, believing themselves. You must win because you scared of death, quoted from the movie. This struck me as well, we, as human, always think there's second chance, indeed, but why don't you think this way, you are capable of winning by doing the first try so why you need the second chance? 

Somehow, I actually relate this movie with Malaysia's circumstance, our political wise is shrinking and getting worsen day by day. Malaysia, the beautiful country needs people who willing to fight for justice, I'm not kidding. If not, we'll really live under this horrible authority. However, the bright side is, I can see some young Malaysians having their thought and are ready to help out the Malaysia, I always believe there are but I cannot make sure the younger generation.lol.

Anyhow, The Dark Knight Rises inspired me tremendously!! It's worthy to watch even it's almost 3 hours. Oh ya, all the time, hero helped the world/city is not for the fame or the name, they just love their people. It is applicable to leaders, leadership is not about position, it's about attitude. Many people are working hard even they don't have the title of leader, because they are working not for fame.

I have been frowning for the whole day, nothing gone wrong. Don't worry,it might be my habit. I really have to be more self-conscious. haha!

Alright, thats all for this post. I'll update more soon kay! :)

I swear I won't hurt you anymore,sorry :(

Love,Sarah♥

I'm fine anyway but sink in stress all the time. Yes, all the time. Stress is not within my area, I couldn't control any. I'm cherish but where's my solid heart? There's lots of bad stuffs happening on me, I don't blame my life because this is part of it which I have to go through on my own. At this moment I'm writing about this, where's my GUTS? You're so long lost to me. I just always so lost. Please wake me up. :(

In this journey, will you be with me most of the time? I'm not greedy, I just want most of the time not all the time.

Why am I not strong anymore? :'(

God, I need your help... I pray...

Love,Sarah ♥

get up

"Someone told me, in the football pitch, you cannot predict what is going to happen because the ball is round, it can change direction anytime. It's like describing the world, the globe is round and has no end, things are not under your control."

able to spot the difference? *wink*

I apologize that I'd been posting those emo emo stuff but I'm alright people. I'm so blessed to see how people concerned and worried about me. But, thank you! you know who you are. :)

There're many times for me to chose to get myself out from this world without any stress but I chose not to because I believe God has more plan for me and I'm born with something and I have to accomplish something. I've been encountering many problems nowadays but with God's strength, I believe, I can go through everything, the clock's ticking, the date on the calendar is marked cross day by day, things will come and definitely will go without any red light blinking.

My piano exam is coming, honestly, I've thought about I'm not going to show up on that day. If I do so, I'm not eligible to say I'm failed because I don't even willing to try out or step out the single step. Am I right? Whatever it is, I told myself, just go and give a try, the world will not end. Take it easy and who knows, something unexpected will happens. =) God bless.

Okay, lets don't talk about some E.M.O. stuff again! haha.

This is just what I was randomly thinking just now alone in the car.

How I wish my boyfriend can stay with me all the time, sitting on the driver seat and drive me around no matter where as long as he's always there. I wish we can watch some musical performances which I like and I'll watch his favourite football game with him. How great if we can dine in somewhere at the mountain and enjoy the night scenery. Perhaps we can do some bakery together, add a lot of sugar to show how sweet we are, mix some yogurts in it or some ice cream. ♥ don't you think this is too cute? 


Good night people. have a great day ahead!

Love,Sarah♥

Ghost rider

How I wish I am a ghost rider.
I am given the power to look through evil's eyes and,
kill them silently under their fear and guiltiness.

How I wish I am a ghost rider.
the bike can lead me to someone who is bad,
appear in front of them and ask them to say sorry to the world.

How I wish I am a ghost rider.
kill someone without further thinking,
put them into the dark hell and feel the pain.

How I wish I am a ghost rider.
when one look through my eyes,
they know how sinful they are.

If you never want to fear of me or die on my hand,
please be true to yourself and to the world.


Written,
Ghost rider.

i know

God, I know you're with me right now :'( I always know there's one more chance and I will pick up myself to another stronger stage. I knowwww.... I know I'm not as weak as what I think :'( I know...

Untitled..

Am in depressing situation now. I really don't know what I can do. I feel so sorry for you guys and disappoint you guys again when I'm down. Sorry.

I'm just so stress, for piano exam which is one month later, for my result because dad keep asking about it, being a useless person at home. Everyday, I just sleep until afternoon, woke up and eat then watch TV and take a nap again, woke up in the evening and TV then dinner or fetch brothers to tuition, surfing internet after some TV until midnight. My daily routine is just this, can you imagine? It's just so shameful to tell people I'm just staying at home and doing nothing!!! :(

Some of you might know which I started to write some "3 things you feel grateful for the day". Since two days ago, I've stop writing about that because I don't know what I'm so grateful about, there's nothing for me to feel grateful.

Alright, I should stop writing now. Time to sleep. Hope through sleeping, could give me peace.

Good night.


Love,Sarah♥

Block you!

i know i grow rounder :(

Honestly, been emo this few days. Staying at home and totally lifeless. Being a driver at home, keep fetching my brothers up and down all the time, everyday. This shouldn't be how I live for summer break, I believe.

I've spoken to my mom about the voluntary work which I found in website and the organizer had reply me but my mom refuse me to go. She confessed that the location is not good because it's in Chow Kit where it's kind of complicated places. From what I always heard from people, there's a place with pubs, clubs, prostitutes and I've not been there personally so I don't know. But what I know is, it's so kind of the organizer to reply my email. He can choose not to.

Opportunities are always present infront of you, I always think that I am the one who's keep catching it blindly but no one actually pushing me to get it or cheer besides me except you, you know who you are. God, are you there? or you have another plan for me? Yes, I always have faith on there's always some reason for something to happen or not to happen. I'll give the faith again for this time.

Sometimes, I just hate adults, they're the one who keep telling us how cruel is the real world, they rarely give us hope. Children are born to be innocent and dream big but there's always destroyer.

I really I can do something in this world, someone keep telling me to fight for my dream but I have no courage to do that, so sorry to say. This is how the environment raised me up, I have no rights to say no if I don't like something.

Since young, my dad has planned for me everything! People asked me some questions, I will just say "my dad said..... my dad said... " I'm wondering is it shameful or should I feel proud. Somebody please tell me. Alright, you might tell me my parents love me, but I have my own dream and I think because they still have the typical thinking.

It's so funny, I asked my dad and mom once what's your biggest thing or the most important stuff for you to accomplish in your life. You know what they told me? To have next generation, which means you must continue your generation with your gene. Oh gooood, I totally have no comment for it. It might be true but for me, it's not all about!

And here, I've read true this articles. It's interesting though yet saddening because seeing people going to the path which is not their favor. *articles full with pictures.
"Not Where They Hoped They'd Be"
http://www.theatlantic.com/infocus/2012/06/not-where-they-hoped-theyd-be/100320/

Another one is about Women, why there's women who has no courage to be the top and here are the reasons. I really think that women please don't look down on yourself, you know that you can do more than you think. In fact, women can do better in multitasking then men. :)
"The Real Reason There Aren't More Women on Boards:"
http://www.forbes.com/sites/shenegotiates/2012/06/04/the-real-reason-there-arent-more-women-on-boards/

So ya, that's all for today. Thank you for reading my dear readers :) Sleep well.

Love,Sarah♥

3 things

hello there! how's life treating you? I'm fine but not good in sometimes and so sorry for random at most of the time. oh ya, I'm back from japan yesterday! :) It was great but frankly speaking, go once to Japan is enough, not more than that but it's still worth it to pay Japan a visit. Will tell you the details in the Japan entry ya. So stay tuned. :)

So here, went out today to 1 Utama. Initially was celebrating Johnny's birthday but he called me last minutes that he couldn't make it but we still go, just went for a quick lunch, movie-promethus and pick present for Johnny. That's all. Promethus was freaky and creepy as well, it'll scare you all the time. I even shouted once in the cinema, it was awkward man!! But overall, it was okay, nothing much to comment about it. Haha.

I came across someone's status on facebook and I think this is a great idea and good habit! :) You do write 3 down 3 things that you feel grateful of before you go to bed. it's easy, please don't think this is ridiculous or it's just a piece of shit. Time by time, when you look back what have you written down, you'll increase your happiness and always appreciate what you have. Don't you think this is a brilliant idea? :) You'll sure enjoying the process of accumulating them everyday.

Oh ya, I'm working out on the promise I've made, read news frequently! So, here to share with you some articles which I found they're interesting! :)

Do you ever thought about the nature of forgetting things of yours will affect your future? This is what common parents did, they always forget about their child and they'll be left behind without any noticing. HAHA!! Even UK prime minister, David Cameron left his child somewhere. So please, daddy and mummy, look after your child before they got their own mobile phone! haha. you know what i mean.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-18394690

Another article is about "Truth is, we all lie" This is extremely interesting! Now, I admit I actually lying everyday. LOL!! I mean the minor lie, not the big one okay, bear in mind. Haha. But still, I hope to find out more about this. Which nerves or cells or whatever make us lie, like just automatically. Haha. :) Read this out!
http://www.rappler.com/life-and-style/6082-yes,-we-all-lie-here-s-why

That's all for today people, thank you for reading as always if you do :)

*guys are never stop lying, this is true. I truly believe.

Love,Sarah♥

May,foundation ends

Hello there, how you doing? May 30 is my last day of my foundation program, something regret and hilarious happened, some of you might know, some of you may not. By the way, I'm not going to tell here. It's a shame on me.

Something in me is not complete, I will not only tell you until August. Stay tuned then. I have not much plan on my summer break, initially, was planning to get an internship but companies don't recruit foundation students, so ya. But, to think back now, I have too many stuffs to do, not too say too many, is many. Piano exam on July, got to practise seriously hard, I'm not gonna fail this exam, twice a week of ballet class as usual, going to travel with friends to Kota Kinabalu (have to train up my stamina and learn how to breathe properly).

Actually, I would like to find a job but I'm just afraid that I would sacrifice so many things. My dad doesn't allow me to find some improper job such as sales girl or some works that I wouldn't learn much. So, this summer will be a boring break for me. Anyway, will find something to equip myself, oh ya, nowadays I am pushed to read news everyday since I don't read news. haha. Somehow, I will read some articles and news everyday, gotta push myself. I will share with you guys when I do blogging ya. :)

On wednesday, 30th May 2012, I was packing all the stuffs in the hotel in order to check out on time and lighten my burden. There were too many stuffs and I didn't know what to pack first and where to starts but my friend told me to packed clothes first, hmm.. what a great idea then I succeed to pack everything in an hour? It was so sad to leave my one-year-so-called-nest. I will not forget everything there,all the memories and the settings.

so this is how my table looks like for a year,a bit messy.

the rack

these were not the hard part I mentioned, it was my cupboard, full of unnecessary stuffs and clothes but I didn't get to take any picture of it.haha. *just leave it.

I guess that's all for this post but glad that God gave me experience that I craved for and should have experience it. After that incident, finally, I knew who is good and fake. Thank you people :) I was so touched that I have friends who are still care about me. Don't worry, I have already been instilled with positive bond! :)

Things happen for some reasons

Light. Love. Life

Love,Sarah ♥

Are you worthy?

Since I've been studying in University for almost a year. I realized a lot of stuffs, I gained a lot, I learned much but i know it never enough. What I want to say is, the crucial part i found out in University is "What's your value?" Are you worth enough to let me stick to you? Are you smart enough to answer my question?

Unfortunately, it's true when I found out around me. Do you even ask those people who has lower result than you and answer your doubt in academic? You wouldn't, am I right?  You would just ask people who are smart enough to answer your questions. Wouldn't you? Unfortunately, I do that as well. I'm not trying to generalize everyone into this category, I apologize if you feel insulted.

You can see this situation much clearly during revision and exam period. Smart people will surrounded by questions which asked by friends. However, those people who are not that smart would just study alone or even you know how the question works, nobody would ask you how.

Indeed, people always determine you based on your result, But I always believe that got an excellent outcome doesn't mean you'll have a bright future or you don't if got a bad one. I admire one of my lecturer who's from Italy, she said that she doesn't believe in exam because you wouldn't know are you in the good condition during exam or what if your brain are not functioning well at that time?

It's always sad that see this situation around me. Let me tell you something, thank God that let me see something what i should have! Throughout the whole semester, I saw somebody who always skipped classes, don't attend any tutorials and the top 3 to exit the exam hall. I always thought that they're just lazy, they don't put any effort, they're just so wrong. But you know what, the person who supposed feel wrong is ME, one of the day, Peter and I planned to not to sleep for the sake of accounting paper. So we stayed in computer lab and did revision for the whole night. When I was about to go to toilet halfway, I passed through learning hub (another part of computer lab), I saw those students whom I described just now (often skipped the classes/ exit the exam hall) were studying hard there and it was 5am. At that moment, my assumption just gone wrong! I felt guilty but with a smile on my face because I know they might be a shinning star in the future. They are international students actually :)

Seriously, thank God. He let me learnt something, don't judge a person's achievement by it's result. if you do, you'll never right! Students who go poor result doesn't mean he/she didn't put effort on it, just maybe he/she didn't has the guts during exam?haha.just kidding.

So, will you ask yourself quietly next time when you meet someone, "Are you worthy enough?" :)

Cheers people!


Love,Sarah♥

ESCAPE

it's so cooling and relaxing sitting alone in the room, do blogging, read some articles, listening to some musics. this is how i escape myself from the real life. i always prefer the time i'm putting my mind in peace is the time without facebook.lol.

i think,to keep yourself away from reality for short period is a necessity for everyone even just for few minutes. it will definitely helps you no matter in your physicality or in mentality.

i am always wondering,how many people still reading my blog. i knew there's few but not sure how many. i'm not a professional blogger and of course i no need lots of reader. surprisingly, there's one canadian relative of mine came to me, "i've checked out your blog, i just bookmarked it actually". this kind of sentence always amaze me. i didn't know actually there's people who's reading my blog, word by word,line by line. thank you people! :)

i guess you're one of the reason why i still keep my blog alive other than blogging is fun,is niche space to spare of the mess environment out there. always appreciate! :) most of the time, to blog here really makes me feel much more better when something is keeping inside me.

there were so many times for me to think what should i do before i die. i know it sounds ridiculous but you just live once! i'll try everything in this world if i could, i didn't mean drugs or bad stuffs.haha. you know what? my mom actually allowed me to go malacca after my accounting paper next friday. this is the very first time i'm going outstation with my friends. i'm seriously exciting till wanna jump high! but somehow, i was scared when my mom just allowed me, i afraid she doesn't love me that's why she let me do whatever i want. the feeling just struck me like that without any reason,guess i'm a kid who's taught strictly since young, i can just see my friends go everywhere they want and i'm the one who always stay at home.

the elder you are, the more mixture feeling you have. you'll tend to think a lot even it's just a simple thing. my friend told me,why there's many people didn't manage to succeed in their life because they're trap in assumptions! indeed, assumptions are the things that stop you by doing what you want. they give you doubts,no action will be brought out.

my foundation program is going to end very very soon.i'll definitely miss everything in this year,i have a fruitful foundation life. especially meeting you,my fallen angel guardian. ♥ 

"He will lead you if you believe in Him. =) "


Love,Sarah ♥