"If you think you're ugly you're wrong. You're pretty inside out. If you worry about exams, people around you will love and support you. Sarah, god knows your reason here on earth. Definitely, you will be a light to people in the darkness and salt to people can't taste. You will change so much until you realise you can so it."

Love,Sarah♥

The story of roller coaster

Me: I feel so down and disappointed of myself.
Him: Look at me, just look at me.
Me: *look and turn away*
Him: Do you know how roller coaster works? Show me.
Me: *My hand shows up and down in wavy way*
Him: The roller coaster goes up and what will happen next?
Me: *hand downwards*
Him: And then?
Me: Go up.
Him: Life is like that and which part of the roller coaster is the most exciting?
Me: *silent*
Him: Is it go down? Life is always like that, when something ended badly, there will be up hill.
Me: But this is a life regret.
Him: Why are you still staying in downwards? It is time to go up and don't worry, I will join you in the roller coaster and we will shout together. *fake scream*
Me: Smile with tears

This is how he pick me up all the time. This is one of the way, there are many more. This is how much I appreciate him.

Thank you.

Love,Sarah♥

Fall and stand back up

It's 1.21AM right now and in the midst of doing assignment, I decided to take a break and blog. Recharge between works is essential.

Things don't go smoothly all the while and negativity hits me consistently which makes me look and feel weak than ever before. I blame myself for every mistakes made and I always look back what I have done wrongly which shows the fault significantly. I have forgotten how to celebrate those little achievement in my life or often, I label myself as "no life" even during weekend.

Thank you so much for making me realize that I have actually done something during weekend even though it was just a simple lunch with my friend.

The word "quitting" strikes me time to time, the mind doubts, the heart stop being passionate. Nothing good just surrounding me.

Another funny stuffs would be, at the same time, some heart warming stuffs will be followed after the bad one which I always feel my life is fooling me in a way, I can't get everything I want but something came infront of me when I least expect.

I would like to thank him the most of being extremely patient of my bad side recently and I believe this is the angel God sent to me. Make me smile all the time which I am always bad at it and whisper things I love to listen.

I always thankful for having the right circle of friends which bring the right energy to me all the time. Thank you.

Beautiful things happening. :)

I shall look far and no turning back, look beyond and know what is the priority.

It's last month of the year, I shall make some impact and utilize these 31 days!

People, wake up and pumped up for the awesome month! :)

Love,Sarah♥

Focus on my land

There are so many opportunities out there for me, generally for youth. Events, camps or program which develop youth into the future leader who leads the world and for God sake, bring peace to the world.

These days, got so many events here and there but I really caught up by few because they are interesting enough. I had so much of urge to join this, attend that with purpose of meeting new people or sometimes clueless with no purpose at all.

Having reflecting back, what I really want? In 5 years time for forever, what do I want to focus and achieve? In the midst of filling up all the column in the application form, problems and challenges flow in my mind. which field I should focus and contribute and which one is I am good at? I have no idea.

Honestly, I am very keen on women empowerment and animal rights. Frankly, I know nothing about them. I just knew when I see animals perform, I will cry. Don't ask me why. I will always remember their faces after the performance until now. I want to feel how they feel, do they really like to perform or they perform only for the food which act as a acknowledgement. I have once thought of going to Australia and work in Sea World. That is why having a diving licence or even a marine animals care examination I don't mind taking them. That's all what I can say about how much I love animal.

Things happen in the globe every second, we cannot help them all but I believe if all of us play our part well, it will be enough to turn the world another side, the good one.

Recent years, I see so many things happening in Malaysia's politics, economy or in social aspect. Joining international event might be a solution for youth to widen their horizon of looking things and having international friends with same interest will definitely help you in broaden your network and share experiences.

Personally, I would focus on my country first. I enjoy the moment where all races, the who nation come together to help the beloved country. It simply say how people care about each other and the country.

I shall make up my mind, focus my own country before solve other country's problem because I belong to this land and I really want it to be better as the time goes, at least for my next generation. :)

Happy Malaysia by the way! :)
Enjoy the song and feel the lyrics kay.

Love,Sarah♥

3 Months and 1 Day

Hello world, I have ended my internship last Friday, total period is 3 months and 1 day. Many people asked how do I feel on the last day, I have nothing to much to say and I actually held on my emotion back but I can't control in the morning. 

When I reached in the morning at the first place, I saw something on my table. 1 Peel Fresh orange juice and 1 small box of koko crunch with a little note written "Breakfast set from Jenn & Beatrice". They knew I was mumbling that I couldn't get my peel fresh juice from the vending machine but it's stucked in there. I was quite down because I wanted to experience buying orange juice from the vending machine in Groupon which is newly brought into.

I teared in the morning, not much, maybe two drops? No one will ever understand how I felt and how much of appreciation I wanted to express. By the way, Jenn is my direct team leader and Beatrice is another colleague or a close one.

Just in case, you couldn't picture the words. Here you go.

As I said, I really think God loves me because I met so many amazing people in the company whereas I might not find them in elsewhere. I am just thankful, thankful and thankful for whatever happened. This experience might not my turning point in life but indeed, is a significant and a memorable one. 

Tell you something interesting stuffs throughout these 3 months. 

These are all the first time in my life and I did it in Groupon.

1. Played table tennis

2. Play pool

3. Been to a real party where people drink and dance

4. Went to karaoke with colleagues

5. Work from home because I couldn't go to work due to massive jam

6. Took 3 days AL as it is given

Well, life still goes on. We don't stop at a point because we feel comfortable, aite? 

To recap, ending the internship is so rewarding where I got positive feedbacks from the leaders and colleagues who never fail to support me and guide me. All my hard work paid off eventhough I did nothing much in my team. Thank you people if you happened to read this post.

I shall stop writing now and start to watch a hindi movie "Slumdog Millionaire" which recommended by my colleague after watching 3 idiots!

Love,Sarah♥

Charismatic leader

I have been working in Groupon for the past 3 months since 5th June 2013. My director left 2 days ago for the God sake of having his own business after he served Groupon for exactly 1 year. I thought I will never teared on that day because I am just an intern and not working directly under him too but surprisingly, I teared along with the colleagues when the farewell video played. I am always the person who is known as emotional when comes to sentimental matter.

Honestly, i was sad because such a great, down to earth and understanding leader left and is really a waste. During his short speech, he said "Now, I left behind my team and pursue my dream, this time I am not leaving alone but a team, this is the most difficult farewell. They are like my child, so dependent on me." I teared, he choked and we sobbed. Nonetheless, I am always impressed by him since the day I came in, he always go along with the team mate well, concentrate to an individual when he/she telling him their problems.

Not to mention, before we (intern) go for lunch, he even asked for picture which I will never expect from a leader, a superior one since he is a top management in Groupon. I'm touched by the movement.

From left: Shun yann, Ryan, Kar Jun (Director), me

I would definitely love to follow a leader like him, a mature, caring and fun leader who always support his team all the way and focus on his team's growth.

Never easy to bid goodbye! All the best in your future undertakings! :)

By the way, tomorrow will be my last week of internship already, not sure whether I will cry. However, I will do my best to contribute all I have to leave no regret.

Love,Sarah♥

Fall apart

Well, here I am again. People who read my blog actually gave me superior encouragement to blog frequently.

Result is out and it showed that I did not do well. I did not cry this time because I have gone through once which was last year. Am I getting stronger? or I do not care anymore? There is mixed feeling but I chose to smile to the desktop screen while I opened up the result in the office. I forgot about it when I was talking to my friend but I know, I still do concern about it.

The next day, I open up the site again because I don't believe what it has shown there. When I opened it up again, my heart tared, somewhat I know, I really really really afraid but I still chose not to.

The good thing is I enjoyed second semester and I even enjoyed exam. I did feel stress at a certain point but I feel somehow good while taking the exam in the exam hall. I really glad that I sunk myself into this atmosphere, maybe is because I don't have the burden anymore.

I don't know what my parents will react this time but I really wish to ask my parents if I have the chance or daring enough, "Do you proud of having her as your daughter?" This question actually hunt me for days because I have not much thing to feel proud of myself. I do feel confident sometimes but I guess I have been living in the competitive environment and I couldn't get myself out of it.

But I do believe I will get rid of it,someday.

Thank you for reading once again, no worries, I am not weak as you think, will get back stronger.

Off to sleep :)

Love,Sarah♥

Speak out

I shall open up my heart again, I realized I have closed up my heart for long long time. I'm not so sure since when, I just started not to believe one so easily. My friend always told me, "Sarah, do share your inner voice, we are always here to listen you." I always wanted to apologize to them, I am so sorry if you are reading this.

These days, I realized I am being mean as I dare to confront people and question people, it doesn't seems right and somebody might say no wrong. There are too much of thoughts in my mind whereby most of them are negative,so sorry to say that.

I am living by myself everyday which means to be myself, not others. confused, right? However, I am trying to be frank nowadays.

I would like to say something to you.

My friend, one day, if I die, don't blame others or anything because I will die as I should.
Do not blame people if he/she is the reason of me being death, I lived happily.
Remember, do not blame, to God too because I have lived enough,

Even if I die tomorrow, I will not regret any single thing,
even I might feel regret because I didn't able to change the world.

I pray that the wisdom is with you. :)

Love,Sarah ♥

Are you aware?

So here I'm back to blog, looking back the latest post was 4 months ago, you kidding me? Just to tell you,I have ended my finals on Monday and I've ended my 1st year degree officially. WOHOO!

Apparently, I just done my grade 8 ballet exam 1 week ago and it went not bad, just some silly mistake happened which I called it as "Joke of the day"! Whatever so, I went to ballet class last night and had dinner in mamak before hand.

Sitting in mamak alone, watching TV after finished a plate of fried maggi with a cup of teh tarik. Having our Minister of education, Muhyiddin on the local news played in the TV, seeing him looks good all the while, the face of nothing-to-be-worried and I am not too sure is he aware of what's really happening in Malaysia's education? Does he know there are still students who live in rural area are illiterate? Don't you think you just have to spare some time,visit and make a change?

Sometimes, people will tend to look into their success but they don't know at the same time, the worse part is also happening. You might say I'm sitting here complaining and do nothing, I might staying here and being useless. At the moment, I can't do much, this might be my excuses but I am willing to share the possible way to close the gap of the inequity of education in Malaysia. Just do visit TEACH FOR MALAYSIA to look around and contribute a bit if possible because you could make a different with a tiny action.

Before I signing off, I would like to paste a video here which teared me up and made me reflect of what have I done and what should I do to leave something in this world, what people will remember me as Sarah Wong Shi Ming when I'm dead.I'll come back here and watch this video when I am hopeless of whatsoever.
http://www.upworthy.com/this-kid-just-died-what-he-left-behind-is-wondtacular-rip


Love,Sarah♥

yesterday,today and tomorrow

This was taken on Monday night, went out with friends at random time for great catch up accompanied by delicious dinner! They are my high school friend. All of us are food lovers, it means all of them are so good in haunting food. Don't know what to eat? Ask them. :D

We actually went to dine in Ben's at Publika, everything was just fine and nice. I had their Ben's chocolate cake, that's just awesome, melted chocolate in the cake with a scoop of vanilla ice cream! *drool* The other were eating some other desserts and looks nice too! Catch up session obviously is making jokes, gossips and sharing! I would really want to have another catch up session with you guys again.

On the same day, in the morning, I went back to my high school to pay my teachers a visit. I'm still contacting with some of the high school teachers, obviously but some of them shifted to somewhere else. That day was the day that school is allowing form 3 students collect the RM100 voucher from teachers in the school. When I met some of the teachers, I was asked "Hey,why are you coming, collecting money?" I was so surprise at first, do I have some money face or whatsoever face saying I want the money? so I'm here to visit teachers, I said. This is one of my must-to-do list during this 2 weeks of break, just take 1 hour time and go back, it feels the same as the time I'm there but the thing different is I've changed, changed to a person who is more experienced and mature. Time flies. Thing changes but the principle, the heart doesn't.

In fact, before I step out from the school front gate, I told myself, I have to be a great person as I've graduated and starting to contribute to the society when I come back next time.

SMK Ideal Heights

I have been going out since monday til yesterday and I had a break today,like totally doing nothing at home. At first, it was really great for me, I can just lay on the bed whenever I like and finish up my application form but Peter and I at last took an hour to edit my CV. LOL! so tiring and I was so moody due to the hot weather and my lips were just at the dry state but I'd been keeping my body hydrated.

Tomorrow will not be a lazy day for me already because will be having meeting and start to pack my luggage because I'm going for 6 days of conference hope everything will be good and beyond my expectation as I don't really have expectation at all.lol

Good night people and see you after a week! :)

Love,Sarah♥

Spring ended

3 months plus of Autumn semester has ended like this,  exam was fine for some module but some not, quite disappointed for my performance for some papers but still proud of surviving till the end.

I should do some reflection for the first semester I guess. For academic wise, honestly, I did learn something but not satisfied as in modules didn't surprise me but during revision, I will always try to get something out from there. Studying/revision doesn't necessary will makes you become the best person but the attitude while dealing with it. Believe or not, when you are studying something, at some point, you tend to be frustrated and  might get something in the end or even nothing. For me, I will think of through this process, it trains me to be a patient, self-motivated person or having critical thinking skill.

Things, try not to see through the surface, the "what" but understand the why.

Alright, that's for the short self-reflection kay, it isn't bad to have consistent self-reflection eh? :)

Oh ya, tell you something, finally, I got to try burger from Myburger lab after exam on Thursday and we drove to Kelana Jaya from Semenyih, see how desperate I am! haha.

 This is actually how the shop looks like, you have to order and pay for the food before you have them.

My burger- Hangover burger

 group picture of the day

Me and ma burger! :)

People asked me how the burger taste like, my burger actually combined beef, hashbrown, vege with charcoal burger. The charcoal burger just a normal bread with black colour,  the beef was awesome but personally, I don't like their hashbrown because it is too sweet which made me feel like i'm eating some crunch sugar. LOL. I'm gonna try others if I'm going again. :)

Currently, I'm reading this article, just click in if you wanna read them. It is written by Idris Jalil, CEO of pemandu.
Why Malaysia wont go bankrupt


Love,Sarah♥

First post of the year

I love my bang,cool right? LOL

Hello Thereeeee! I got too many complaints while not blogging for the erm, past 6 months! I feel really glad having bunch of people who are indirectly care about me, knowing that I didn't blog for long time, asking me what happen to me recently and so on.

Thank you people who let me know that there are people who is caring about me. :) You know who you are. And so here am I. Lets just give you a little bit of update for 2012. Last half year was quite well and was hectic I would say because events, seminars, assignments, presentations in a shot. Well, I will not complain about this but appreciate instead because these every single small stuff is actually make me to realize myself, which way am I heading to. They taught me how to mange my own time too so what do you think? Everyone has their own style to handle them, I believe.

2012 was a totally ups and downs for me but I know I grew in the year,at least a bit, I really appreciate who I met in the year and also people who gone through with me the year. God is planning for you, it's your choice to take up the challenge/question or not. I really thank God for letting me to meet all amazing people who keep me going on. Every single day, person is molding me into the person who I want to be and the person that other wish to see. I do hope I am heading to the right path. I found out what I have to do in the future during the end of 2012, I am really clear about that.

OH WAIT, something is stopping me by. Right now, laying on my bed in my own room. Fear has been attacking me whenever I think about big dreams, it let me pull back myself from thinking,planning or whatsoever. In 2013, I guess I should learn how to defend from fear. This thought is with me all the time, "The elder you grow, the fear is bigger in you." You've heard so much, watched so much, known a lot. Newspapers are telling you how the crime happens, social media are sharing negative social issues, anonymous are telling you how bad is the society behave.

If you're thinking the same thing as me, I urge you to put down your fear with me or else you'll be success in no where because fear is everywhere. Lets make this as a resolution in 2013 kay. :)

"I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear. "
-- Nelson Mandela

I found out that both of my brothers are so talented in their own field, this is what being a sister should feel proud of but what's with me? I don't think I have something to show. Nah, it's fine, I live my life to the best is good enough, haha.

This is one of my first brother (Jack's) photography work piece

My second brother (Sam's) creativity on the sketch board

I chose not to study but blog now because I am having the motivation to blog and the time I've not been blogging but too many posts in my mind which should be typed out.

Oh ya, I have a new instagram account and it's @tomatomeimei Please don't laugh at me, why do I put the name is because I was called as a tomato girl during high school since I do love to eat cherry tomato and my face will look crazily red after have some jog.

I think that's all for first post of the year, it's long enough to read. Take care people and have a great weekend! :)

*I need wisdom


Love,Sarah♥

disagreement out

These few months come along, I find hard to communicate with people especially her. What I said, she just don't agree. I know I'm not a good liaison but I have my own thoughts and it needs agreement. You're not open-minded, I said to her. Her expression changed which I know she don't accept.

Mom, the world changed. I have my own principle I believe, I clearly know what I'm doing all the time even I'll lost somehow.

You can really find that I don't talk much at home because it'll just have arguments, nothing more. Sadly but it's the fact. "hmm...okay...anything..." are my conversation with her. These days I have no appetite to eat much and this get her to complain about it as well, saying that I don't know how to take care of my own, I have a bad habit and all.

Have my dinner now, ciaoz.



Love,Sarah♥

Spirit of a Hero

Today is just a normal day for me but now I learn how to appreciate every single thing in a day, someone told me that you can thank of having some great lunch, thank of talking to someone, thank of walking a distance to home or whatever it is. Life is just simple, doesn't it? =)

weeks back!

I went to watch The Dark Knight Rises this afternoon with mom since there's always cheaper on Wednesday. Let me tell you something which I really have to tell, this movie is just too stunning and every scenes are important one, they have no boring one, trust me. Batman really hits me hardly because it was saying the world needs a hero and people must have their own strong stands, believing themselves. You must win because you scared of death, quoted from the movie. This struck me as well, we, as human, always think there's second chance, indeed, but why don't you think this way, you are capable of winning by doing the first try so why you need the second chance? 

Somehow, I actually relate this movie with Malaysia's circumstance, our political wise is shrinking and getting worsen day by day. Malaysia, the beautiful country needs people who willing to fight for justice, I'm not kidding. If not, we'll really live under this horrible authority. However, the bright side is, I can see some young Malaysians having their thought and are ready to help out the Malaysia, I always believe there are but I cannot make sure the younger generation.lol.

Anyhow, The Dark Knight Rises inspired me tremendously!! It's worthy to watch even it's almost 3 hours. Oh ya, all the time, hero helped the world/city is not for the fame or the name, they just love their people. It is applicable to leaders, leadership is not about position, it's about attitude. Many people are working hard even they don't have the title of leader, because they are working not for fame.

I have been frowning for the whole day, nothing gone wrong. Don't worry,it might be my habit. I really have to be more self-conscious. haha!

Alright, thats all for this post. I'll update more soon kay! :)

I swear I won't hurt you anymore,sorry :(

Love,Sarah♥

I'm fine anyway but sink in stress all the time. Yes, all the time. Stress is not within my area, I couldn't control any. I'm cherish but where's my solid heart? There's lots of bad stuffs happening on me, I don't blame my life because this is part of it which I have to go through on my own. At this moment I'm writing about this, where's my GUTS? You're so long lost to me. I just always so lost. Please wake me up. :(

In this journey, will you be with me most of the time? I'm not greedy, I just want most of the time not all the time.

Why am I not strong anymore? :'(

God, I need your help... I pray...

Love,Sarah ♥